|Deviant Login||Shop||Join deviantART for FREE||Take the Tour|
Help meI lie awake at night and dream about the unknown
the rocking back and forth of my insanity
whispering in my ear that I am alright
I'm not alright.
If I stop then I'll be swept back in
If I close my eyes...
I never know what is going to happen
my head hurts
sick from the swaying back and forth in my dreams
I'm sailing away in my thoughts in a smoggy sea
holding onto what's left of my insanity.
sanity is insanity in my eyes.
I can't see you anymore.
in my dreams I lie awake
no one can hurt me when I'm awake.
I'm weak when I'm asleep
I can't run.
I'm just held down with a weakened breath
tearing the limp words from my mouth
EverydayEveryday I take a pill
Every morning I feel ill.
Every night I take another
For the weary past that I suffer.
I drink it down and close my eyes
Wishing and hoping this is the last time.
I ponder the thought of being better.
Would it make me happy
or make me wonder.
Wonder about will I change
For worse or for better.
Will I forget my past
Or remember a memory
Will I learn to smile for days instead of minutes
Feel purified and light
Well rested and calm.
Everyday I take a pill
In hopes that someday I wont be ill.
Every night I take another
For the weary past that I suffer.
But I will be okay.
The Dragon SleepsYou stare at me through closed doors
creeping passage ways
The dragon stands guard
as the weary souls try to escape from the pain.
I look out the barred window
yearning for the taste of freedom
that no one can bestow upon me.
except for me.
The elixir that formulates in my mind
down the echoed halls
the sleeping dragon unaware.
I drink until there is none left.
Then I die.
I am free.
My soul whispering in the ears of the scared
It will get better soon
but this was the only way for me.
I Feel DoneI sit in my home by myself watching the days go by me.
As I sit here and watch the people running past me
I wish that I could be carefree like them.
But I have a past.
A past that has made me who I am today.
I have been cut by my own hands.
Hit by my own fists.
And dragged to near deaths by my legs.
I have done this to myself,
But I was not the only one who contributed in this pain.
My life has been like a downward spiral.
Being kicked around by my peers.
Laughed at by strangers.
Chased down to near breaking points by my so called friends.
I feel so alone...
I've lost so many and gained so little.
I've been hurt.
I've been beaten down to a point where there only seems to be one way out.
Doctors know nothing and they can't seem to help.
Talking doesn't do much but let the pain out.
As it sits there and watches you cry.
Cry about the things you've wished never happened.
About the pain that you never asked for.
About the disabilities you can never grow out of.
About the people that hurt y
As I dig my claws into your skin.
You feel the rush.
As I bite into your neck
The blood rushes down.
Bruised and punctured.
The pleasure found in the eyes
In the touch
In your tender reaction.
The rush of it all
Happening so fast.
Down and out.
You passed out.
You are laying on the floor.
Clothing sprawled all over the room
As he stands over your limp body.
Till next time.
I want to be happyAfter all the progress
I am heading back down the spiral
Fallen deep into the abyss
I feel hopeless.
I haven't felt like this for years
I just want to lay back to the music
let it take me away
drift into my ocean of tears I have created.
They say the pills wont help
That I am stuck like this
stuck in this train of thought.
I want to drift away.
I want to be happy.
Looks like that is never going to happen.
I want to be lifted from the shackles that bound me to the Earths core.
I want to rise from the scarlet's sins.
I am going to soar through the endless space
Time standing still.
The world is collapsing beneath us and we do nothing to stop it.
We watch as the ones left behind suffer
still chained to the Earth
Stuck in a cavern collapsed on itself.
I will free you
I will take a chainsaw to your shackles.
I will unbind the curse that is swallowed upon you.
Leaving the sweet sound of freedom in the air.
The silence of the children with their eyes closed in prayer.
Thanking the tender soul that lifted them up.
They will whisper.
Love is BlindLove is blind.
I wish I was blind...
I am scared of the word love.
When I close my eyes I can feel it,
but I don't want to.
So I would open my eyes.
When you have been hurt,
the love fades away.
The blind keep their innocence by not seeing.
I can see.
But I feel more when my eyes are closed.
My Dear, Loved MinaUnlike the people you know, I will always be there.
Although you may not always see me
I'll be watching over you.
People in your lives may come and go but a vampire will always stay true.
We may leave for a while but we always come back before you're gone.
One glance and we vanish
but in your hearts we will always stay clear.
My Dear, Loved Mina.
Tender A tender moment shared
Will it be remembered? Only time can tell.
Two boys part hands with doubt
Yet each's heart wants to shout
Mr. SunI've got, glass eyelids and paper cut dreams
Dissected the day and stitched up the seams
Carved the weather forecast into blocks of obsidian
Walked outside, every step was like oblivion
Tried to shine and make every second count
I only turned fight or flight into bout and pout
Nothing I do lately ever turns out right
Everything I see only reflects the broken light
It's nights like these where I could just pack up and go
Seeing the sky likes this heightens the maddened glow
Don't mean to complain, what's wrong with today
Something happened and made Mr. Sun run away
Must have ran somewhere to find someone who liked him
Ever since the big bang, he's looked odd and quite grim
But that's okay, I'm still there for you now
Even if you only rise up when things are most down
I'm here for you, just like I was then
Still kind of jaded you left when I was ten
Took away all the things that made me whole
Killed off the incentive that rewarded the goal
I had nothing left, not much to strive for
Like an infected spleen,
Or the color you turn,
After drinking Mr. Clean.
Like the trees in the summer breeze,
Or the eyes of the girl you fell deeply in love with.
Like an alien from space,
Who sucked that infected spleen,
Of the girl who you feel deeply in love with.
You drank Mr. Clean,
To be with the girl of your dreams.
Your apologies get old,
The more you keep repeating them.
The less the meaning behind it,
You are just wasting your breath.
Personally, I would let it go.
Who deserves you?
When you have gotten the best.
I feel pity for you,
Because you have become a mess.
But, don't take that as an excuse.
I know you can't be that stupid.
With time, maybe you will be better.
I mean you no harm.
But, please do think of me.
I'm not failing,
I just quit.
You are too toxic for me.
We all have been a victim,
Of feelings of use,
and many more.
Many would agree,
To tormented friendships.
I use to have a lot,
Of friends I could trust.
I would rather stand alone,
An army of one.
As strong as I need.
Please don't come back this time,
It will only cause another war,
You are just to toxic,
I'm not sure I can take it anymore.
Days of StrugglesDays of Struggles
Each day is an endless struggle.
May it be as simple as getting out of bed,
To dealing with depression.
Each day, there is something new.
May it be an old problem,
Coming back even harder.
Are slowly wearing me down.
Each passing day,
My life is slowly,
Oh my poor empty soul.
It has no where to go,
No where to hide,
As the pain comes crashing in,
Like a hurricane.
There is something new.
Lies to confuse your mind.
Are my everyday event.
From the second I wake up,
To the second I go to sleep.
End in my dreams,
I'm haunted my these struggles.
Not a day goes by,
That there isn't some kind of struggle.
Endless days of struggles.
Escape to Mount KenyaEscape to Mount Kenya
Shimmered in the
Of the day.
A civil servant,
Trudged the camp's gate.
As he walked on by.
Sentries slumped over
The group appeared like,
World War II
Reached a tipping point.
Japanese were driven
The German Army.
Two years earlier,
Italian Army Personnel
To POW Camp 354
In the small town of,
Trapped on the
wrong side of history.
"People in prison
Camps do not
Live. They vegetate."
Summit of Mount Kenya
Sparkled in the Sunlight.
The damage was done.
"In order to break,
the monotony of life
One had only to start
Taking risks again."
Working in secret,
From barbed wire,
Cold-forged ice axes.
Everything they could
Sunset CarpSunset Carp
Your lifeless eyes,
Staring into worlds unknown.
As if you were shouting for help.
The light of the sun,
Reflecting off your lifeless body.
It seems as if you,
Are trying to reach for the light,
Become one with the light.
The beautiful orange,
Mixing in with your tanish skin.
The wood below you,
As if you,
Were planned for someone’s dinner.
You are the Sunset Carp,
Resting in a pile of burned wood.
The meaning behind those pieces of wood,
You, my dear fish,
Will forever be in my favor.
The beautiful curve of your side,
The reflecting sunlight of your lifeless body,
Your mouth agape,
As if you were shouting for help.
Don’t fret my dear,
You will be home soon,
My Sunset Carp.
sand dumped me
kaanton ka gamm na tha
gamm mutthi ka tha
jisme thi sambhaale rakkhi humne yaadon ki ret kabse
mitti hoti toh paani daal baandh bhi lete
murat kar ,sanjo kahin chhupa bhi lete
ret ki fitrat toh dagabaaz hai
khurdari hai,fisal jaati hai
laakh sambhalaa isko,mandir tak kiya
yeh jara si hawaa se hi
paani se rokna chahaa humne
bah hi niklin
meri gamgeen mutthiyaan
gamon se laal ho
khaali ho bah niklin
kalaayiyon ki chudii tod,sapno ka rang udaa
treat me atleast as human wen u know m an angel
d people claims 2 b d closests breathes to someone
to start up with normal path n old talks
they atleast should consider that very some special one while behaving -so called a "HUMAN "
i dnt mind n forgives all too if i consider someone my own,n i always mean it,and will behave same too,as these mistakes counts as minor in family,and relations human makes outiside world are equal to our real ones
We are vampireWhat do you think a vampire is?
To me a vampire doesn't
have a specific eye color.
Not a certain skin tone.
We do not have
a certain hair color.
No special birth place.
Our styles are endless.
We constantly change.
You know when you saw one, Because
we are insane.
We are our own.
And you know by the fangs.
We are magical.
We are more than one.
We are here for nore fight or rest.
We are vampire
and we shall prevail.
Our DutyWe swallowed the path home
Because we were hungry,
Though starving is an ongoing
Story, an empty bag
Dancing in the streets,
Full of an unfastened voice
Walking through the house,
Wind unchained, heart admonished.
Heaven fills its eyes, crawls away,
That sleeping boat content to follow
The vacant waves, intervals
Of dying that we dare not interrupt,
And we watch the kind ear shrinking
From our charcoal docks; heaven
With a full stomach crawls away.
This is what we were put here for.
Keep in Touch!
^Nyx-Valentine arrived in our community and started whipping everyone into a frenzy with her relentless desire to bring the Artistic Nude and Fetish galleries to the fore. 9 years later, and it's safe to say that Nyx is not only a leader as a photographer in these galleries, but she has also established herself as a much saught after model. ^... Read More